Well it was confirmed. The beta was negative and so that ended any hope I had of getting a last minute hail Mary pass :( I know it is not the end of the world, but it is so crushing. As a surrogate this is what you want to do. You want to be pregnant and you want to give your IP's a baby. Nobody likes failed transfers even through they happen more times then anybody wants to mention :( I am still a bit down from the negative thing.

My husband has been so supportive and wonderful. He is like they IF's will try again don't worry. I was not sure for none of the embryos make it to freeze. The IF's have to find a new proven donor for out of 13 eggs only 2 of them made it to 5 days! Not a very good percentage.

So my IF's called me on beta day and they were so wonderful. They are we are not giving up we are going to try again. They spoke with the RE and they are looking for a new donor. The RE said that I was perfect. I am sure he meant as a surrogate, but it is always nice to hear that you do something well.

I am sure the IFs will find a donor soon and we will start again. I am glad that they are going to try again. They are just great guys and I really would like to make them parents.