Why is this so difficult? I am having such a hard time with not getting a ++++++ so far. I have been searching the web high and low to see what the latest anybody got a positive with a 5dt transfer. So far 9 days seems to be a winner. I am just 7 today, but not feeling pregnant yet :(

I just felt like this morning when I took the test I didn't even blink and it came up negative. If seemed to come up so fast like I had my husband take the test! I guess I just want a glimmer of hope. I am still not giving up, but I am seriously having a pity party today. I need to get my head out of my ass for I have had a couple of negative transfers in the past and each time I beat myself up. I know that is does not always work on the first, second or even third try. The journey of a GS can be very frustrating. We so very much want everything to work out for the parents. We want to be a GS to help create families so anytime there is a bump in the road it is very difficult to deal with.

So tonight my husband and I are going to dinner for our 5 year anniversary. It is actually tomorrow, but we can't go tomorrow night so we are celebrating a day early!!!! I am excited about dinner for I know it is going to be great. Also I got an email from my FIM (former intended mother) She is the Mum of the twins. I am so glad to have met D and helped her and P have babies. They are great parents and good people. She always sends me videos and pictures of the twins and we have just become good friends even though they are in Australia I still feel a connection. It was so great to hear from D it made me feel a bit better.

Okay I am rambling today. Have a great day and hopeful I will get some unexpected great news soon.